A Chaotic Masterpiece

This is my Tumblr.

There are many like it.
But this one is mine.


My name is Tyler Kianka, and this is my Tumblr/Blog.

*_____________________________*


I've always been one of the quiet ones, usually in the back of the room and avoiding nearly everyone at any cost.
I've always been like this, but throughout the years I've found my way of making friends, sometimes with fellow quiet kids and others with a variety of different people.

I was brought up to be respectful, kind, and courteous.
All of which I am.
Even if you hate them, respect your enemy.

Although I never payed full attention throughout school, I'm no dummy and can honestly say I'm rather smart.

My social anxiety isn't drastic, I can still go to public places, be around crowds of people, but I do have my limits.

*_____________________________*


When your isolated or alone for most of the time you tend to do a lot of thinking as would most likely be assumed.
Sometimes good, others bad, but you observe and learn more regardless of what it may be.

Is it worth it?
To spend so much time thinking, analyzing, dreaming..
I would rather be dead then mind/soul-less.
At least then I wouldn't be monotonous as another sheep in the herd.

*_____________________________*


My imagination, as I can also proudly and honestly say, is very much alive and kicking.

Drawing use to be what I did alot of during school, but I also did a fair amount of writing as well.

Nowadays I hardly draw anymore but continue to write be it my perspective, thoughts, ideas, feelings, or whatever else.

*_____________________________*


I am very philosophical and although I don't know much about or of philosophy, I am as much a philosopher as I am human.

I tend to play devil's advocate a lot and I've learned that sometimes you cant just stay in the middle and have to take a side.

But considering I have trouble making decisions as it is, going with one way or side as oppose to the other/s can be excruciatingly difficult.

*_____________________________*


I have a colorful variety of friends of different personalities, standpoints, views, etc.

All of which I am glad to know and have a relationship with, even when I tend to stray adrift at times.

*_____________________________*


I realize that writing is not just something I can choose to do or avoid, it is apart of who I am.

When speech fails, writing never does.
When actions can not, it can.

It is voice, thought, feeling, idea, passion, view, and so much more all combined.

To write is to breathe, and although I may hold my breath some times, I can never hold it forever.
I must write, because I live.
And perhaps I may even live, to write.

*_____________________________*


But, anyways..
I hope you enjoy what I present and even if you do not so long as I make you think, have you feel, be it good or bad, then I am happy to have done so.

policymic:

23 ways feminists have made the world better for women

It may seem like a bizarrely obvious statement, but somewhere between earning women the right to vote, pushing through legislation opening up universities to female students and advancing the Civil Rights movement (to name just a very few examples), feminism has indeed made life much, much better (and as a result, happier) — not just for American women, but American men as well. Far removed from the stereotypical and inaccurate image of the bra-burning activist, feminists have proven time and time again that women’s rights are human rights. And as the Declaration of Independence so elegantly points out, the ideals of life and liberty are intrinsically tied up with that third pursuit: happiness. 

Read the full list | Follow policymic

(via phroggee)

You know you’ve read a good book when you turn the last page and feel a little as if you have lost a friend.

—Paul Sweeney (via observando)

(via smoke-thc-drop-lsd)

royalstyle:

The royal signet of the Prince of Wales
The use of the left-hand pinky finger as the wedding ring and royal signet or initial ring of the British Royal Family is shrouded in family secrecy. Nevertheless, it is an ironclad tradition dating back to the sons of Queen Victoria. The Queen’s son Prince Leopold wore many rings on his left pinky, as did all of the sons of King George V.
It was previously common for men of the upper class to wear a signet with their arms or badges engraved on them. In the days when letters were sealed with sealing wax, the ring was used to press the seal into the wax so the recipient would recognize who the sender was.
In present day, Prince Charles wears the official signet of the Prince of Wales, which is nearly 175 years old and was last worn by the former King Edward VIII (styled as the Duke of Windsor following his abdication) when he was still Prince of Wales.
The royal signet bears the heraldic badge of the Prince of Wales. It consists of three silver (or white) feathers rising through a gold coronet of alternate crosses and fleur-de-lys. The motto “Ich Dien” is on a dark blue ribbon beneath the coronet. The motto is written as a contraction of the German phrase for “I serve”.
Its use in royal heraldry goes back to the time of Edward, Prince of Wales (the Black Prince) in the 14th Century. Experts in heraldry believe the feathers may have been used by the family of Edward’s mother, Philippa of Hainault, but the “Ich Dien” motto formed part of the arms of the King of Bohemia.

royalstyle:

The royal signet of the Prince of Wales

The use of the left-hand pinky finger as the wedding ring and royal signet or initial ring of the British Royal Family is shrouded in family secrecy. Nevertheless, it is an ironclad tradition dating back to the sons of Queen Victoria. The Queen’s son Prince Leopold wore many rings on his left pinky, as did all of the sons of King George V.

It was previously common for men of the upper class to wear a signet with their arms or badges engraved on them. In the days when letters were sealed with sealing wax, the ring was used to press the seal into the wax so the recipient would recognize who the sender was.

In present day, Prince Charles wears the official signet of the Prince of Wales, which is nearly 175 years old and was last worn by the former King Edward VIII (styled as the Duke of Windsor following his abdication) when he was still Prince of Wales.

The royal signet bears the heraldic badge of the Prince of Wales. It consists of three silver (or white) feathers rising through a gold coronet of alternate crosses and fleur-de-lys. The motto “Ich Dien” is on a dark blue ribbon beneath the coronet. The motto is written as a contraction of the German phrase for “I serve”.

Its use in royal heraldry goes back to the time of Edward, Prince of Wales (the Black Prince) in the 14th Century. Experts in heraldry believe the feathers may have been used by the family of Edward’s mother, Philippa of Hainault, but the “Ich Dien” motto formed part of the arms of the King of Bohemia.

(via disco-dancer-donna)

captocie:

thriveforhappiness:

whether the answer is yes or no, or a mix of the both, i wanted to remind you that you’re great. here is some stuff that i thought might be helpful if you ever feel down or bored or just wanna try something new!!
playlists // don’t be down / happy, happy, happy / cheer up!! / feeling down? / upbeat / for when you’re feeling sad.. / be happy! / songs to listen to when you are feeling sad. / anxiety/panic attacks / dashboard session / nostalgic. / it’s okay, not be okay. / anxiety’s lullaby / don’t be sad / songs that make you feel better / hey man, it’ll be okay. / note to self. / forget about it / baby don’t cut 
cheering up // emergency compliment!! / paying for people’s groceries / random acts of kindness caught on film / free hugs experiment / tipping servers $200 / little acts of kindness / 27 videos that will make you happy / givesmehope / textpost blog!! / the everything post / repeat after me. / feel like you lost something? / you are not alone. / just listen to this / cute yahoo answers / nail art tuts / bad x-factor auditions / need a hug?  / you can do anything 
cool stuff // music thing / how to lucid dream!! / teach yourself guitar (wow) / learn a new language / creepy websites / the color game / make a mind palace / explore the world / make a temporary tattoo! / musical sea creature // babies experiencing things / 7 day positive challenge / if you forgot how beautiful the world is / draw a nebula / watch documentaries / sugar cookies recipe / 100 things to do / anasomnia / kawaii emotions / 100+ games / make your own font
depression // how to love yourself / alternatives to self harm / what am i feeling? / if you feel like crap / dealing with depression / let go of your past. / what is depression? / depression & cutting/things to do instead of cutting / alternatives to self harm / the cure to sadness! (in under 3 minutes) / things to do when you’re sad  / feel good 101: depression/ stop cutting, create instead
anxiety/stress // soundrown / build stuff with sand / rainymood / chill out / zen garden / managing stress / social anxiety tips / PTSD forums / anti-anxiety masterpost / a place to think / calming manatee / the dawn room / 100,000 stars / types of anxiety disorders / anxiety attack tips / anti-anxiety foods / using a thought diary / panic attacks & anxiety /
eating disorders // bloating in recovery  / why you must eat / what is ED recovery? / learning to love your body / how to eat a fear food / helping someone with an eating disorder / 281 reasons to recover /
asking for help // telling people how you’re feeling / how do i tell someone when im afraid? /  how to ask for help / anxiety forums / 
movies, documentaries, tv // action movies / disney movies / scary movies / movies for angsty teens / my mad, fat diary / mean girls / blue is the warmest color / submarine / teen wolf / the vampire diaries / pretty little liars / american horror story / bob’s burgers / the mindy project / ultimate teen movie masterpost / hannah montana / sherlock / american beauty 

I’d like to add 7 Cups of Tea to this list, for when you want to talk to a trained listener about something that’s upsetting you

captocie:

thriveforhappiness:

whether the answer is yes or no, or a mix of the both, i wanted to remind you that you’re great. here is some stuff that i thought might be helpful if you ever feel down or bored or just wanna try something new!!

playlists // don’t be down / happy, happy, happy / cheer up!! / feeling down? / upbeat / for when you’re feeling sad.. / be happy! / songs to listen to when you are feeling sad. / anxiety/panic attacks / dashboard session / nostalgic. / it’s okay, not be okay. / anxiety’s lullaby / don’t be sad / songs that make you feel better / hey man, it’ll be okay. / note to self. / forget about it / baby don’t cut 

cheering up // emergency compliment!! paying for people’s groceries / random acts of kindness caught on film / free hugs experiment / tipping servers $200 / little acts of kindness / 27 videos that will make you happy / givesmehope / textpost blog!! / the everything post / repeat after me. / feel like you lost something? / you are not alone. / just listen to this / cute yahoo answers / nail art tuts / bad x-factor auditions / need a hug?  / you can do anything 

cool stuff // music thing / how to lucid dream!! / teach yourself guitar (wow) / learn a new language / creepy websites / the color game / make a mind palace / explore the world / make a temporary tattoo! / musical sea creature // babies experiencing things / 7 day positive challengeif you forgot how beautiful the world is / draw a nebula / watch documentaries / sugar cookies recipe / 100 things to do / anasomnia / kawaii emotions / 100+ games / make your own font

depression // how to love yourselfalternatives to self harm / what am i feeling? / if you feel like crap / dealing with depression / let go of your past. / what is depression?depression & cutting/things to do instead of cutting / alternatives to self harm / the cure to sadness! (in under 3 minutes) / things to do when you’re sad  / feel good 101: depressionstop cutting, create instead

anxiety/stress // soundrown / build stuff with sand / rainymood / chill out / zen garden / managing stress / social anxiety tips / PTSD forums / anti-anxiety masterpost / a place to think / calming manatee / the dawn room / 100,000 stars / types of anxiety disorders / anxiety attack tips / anti-anxiety foods / using a thought diary / panic attacks & anxiety /

eating disorders // bloating in recovery  / why you must eat / what is ED recovery? / learning to love your body / how to eat a fear food / helping someone with an eating disorder / 281 reasons to recover /

asking for help // telling people how you’re feeling / how do i tell someone when im afraid? /  how to ask for helpanxiety forums

movies, documentaries, tv // action movies / disney movies / scary moviesmovies for angsty teensmy mad, fat diary / mean girls / blue is the warmest color / submarine / teen wolf / the vampire diaries / pretty little liars / american horror story / bob’s burgers / the mindy project / ultimate teen movie masterpost / hannah montana / sherlock / american beauty 

I’d like to add 7 Cups of Tea to this list, for when you want to talk to a trained listener about something that’s upsetting you

(via jenniferether)